im so stupid

so me and hallie are looking through my friends myspace blog thingy.and we found this poem,i looked at the time this was posted.then i was like "omg why didnt i ever see it?" at this time me and him were talk,we were close.but then were slowy statred to faded. or i did..... i cant believe i never saw it.im so stupid ):

i feel like every day that passes by waiting for you

is just another day well spent

those days were nothing

my life is being well spent...

and i've been waiting for a while

and now what? i dont get the reward for my patience?

ugh, fucking stupid

get a gun point it towards my head

and pull the damn trigger

the waiting will stop forever

maybe in death i will see you

but while i am alive

i havent seen you

you say that we'll see each other soon

but when the day comes up something else does too

and we have to re schedule

i feel like an idiot just waiting

and waiting for something that wont happen

shoot me right in the head

make it quick and painless

that way i wont wait for death to come

like i have to wait for an eternity for you

you're just a person waisting my time in life