im so stupid

so me and hallie are looking through my friends myspace blog thingy.and we found this poem,i looked at the time this was posted.then i was like "omg why didnt i ever see it?" at this time me and him were talk,we were close.but then were slowy statred to faded. or i did..... i cant believe i never saw it.im so stupid ):

i feel like every day that passes by waiting for you

is just another day well spent

those days were nothing

my life is being well spent...

and i've been waiting for a while

and now what? i dont get the reward for my patience?

ugh, fucking stupid

get a gun point it towards my head

and pull the damn trigger

the waiting will stop forever

maybe in death i will see you

but while i am alive

i havent seen you

you say that we'll see each other soon

but when the day comes up something else does too

and we have to re schedule

i feel like an idiot just waiting

and waiting for something that wont happen

shoot me right in the head

make it quick and painless

that way i wont wait for death to come

like i have to wait for an eternity for you

you're just a person waisting my time in life

so pathetic

so me and my friend hallie were at the mall,doing what we always do.yeah,like normally girls we rate guys from 1-10.me and hallie have different taste in boys.she likes boys that shop at hollister,while i like boys that shop at stores like zummiezs,or skate works.the nite before we were watching a show called made.were this girl was given a task. the girl was take 5 pictures of her and some boys she thought were cute. she was also to get their name and number.so today thats what we decided to do. but was made it into a race. who ever got the first five boys,wins.loser has to buy lunch. (: pretty easy,the only stores i had to go to were of course zummiezs & skate works. i went to zummiezs first. 3 of the works were happy to take pictures,and give me their number;adien,matthew,&luke.pretty cute (: so then i went to skate works,their were pretty hot!i was kinda shy around them,i was going to skip the store,but then they went up to me!this boy nem alex. i told him about it,and he was glad to help me,but ttheir was a catch.but i'll tell you about that later.so asked a few of his friends to help and in the end i hand about 8 pictures and number.& the catch that came from alex,was that i give him my number. (: so hallie bought lunch,Subway "eat fresh" (: my favorite. but hallie said that shes seen alex before,and not at skate works.i told her that i had a tiny little crush on him.at first i thought hallie was kidding when she said shed go into the store, and declare my love for him.but she gave me the "im not joking,sky.1-2-3 im about to run to the store look"she ran.i chased her,she declared it.i froze,and she dragged me out.& you knoe where shed seen him before?he sits on the oppsite side were we sit,during are U S history class.ughhhhhhhh.damn hallie. mondays is going to be so weird.....im so pathetic. but the up side, i think i saw a smile come across his face,but i wasnet sure,i ran my ass out.as for hallie?shes dead....just kidding,but ugh....HALLIE! she did say she was sorry.& she also reading over my shoulder and says HI!yeah shes sleeping over this week end.its nice that we dont have school on monday!ooo,yeah we dont have school on monday! yes,but we have school on tuesday!.... Hellloooo alex..... Im So Pathetic

american idol

haha.
im watching American idol rite now,its the audition.& their pretty funny.they sins so bad,i feel kinda sorry for them.i wonder if they tryed it out on their friends and family.but as you watch...maybe not....well i knoe im not good at singing but,i least i knoe.but i give then props,for trying on national tv.it makes for a good show.their was this one kid yesterday on the show,if you were watching then it the kid with the kinda long brownish redish hair that makes home made horror moives.that kid was pretty adorable,happy he made it to hollywood.this years they found pretty good people,with awesome voices.

the in crowed & their broken toy

The little girl cries, through eyes.
The little screams, cries out to me.
The little girl runs, through broken glass.

She is broken now.
She is broken down.

Broken toy, broken toy.
Broke in half by a stupid boy.
Broken toy, broken toy.
Found out her whole life's just one ploy.

The little girl bleeds, it's all she needs.
The little girl gasps, straight through her mask.
The little girl's lips, pucker, and whimper.
The little girl, screams, cries out to me.
She is broken now.
She is broken down.

She cries for her broken toy,
She cries for the broken heart.
She cries for herself, she's broken.

Broken toy, broken toy.
Broke in half by a stupid boy.
Broken toy, broken toy.
Found out her whole life's just a ploy.
Broken toy, toy.

...

She's decapitating all her barbies now.
She's biting off their heads.
She's decaptitating all her barbies now.
She sits their screaming.



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when i went about writing this...
it was time for english(2period)
our teacher asked us to be creative with our writting.
we were to write about a moment of our childhood,
something,anything,as long as its amusing.
she was really interested in what the kids in the corner
had to write,as did the rest of the class.
& of course it was orally.
it seem she was always quite amused withwhat came out of me,& my friends
mouths.we spoke the truth,how hard is that?
we hate to be judged,but we love who we are.
the students at this school all depends on whats on the in crowd.
i was their once,& you knoe what?
i get tired of not being myself,i wore a mask
so everyone would like me,so i can stay in the "in crowed".
but why should i?if they dont like me,its their lost
because under this mask is someone fun,and really great.
im sorry to get off topic
but if i did stay in the "in crowed " i would have been that broken toy.


ooo did i mention i got an A on my poem? :D